Wednesday, June 29, 2005
a few days ago, or rather 2 days ago, it seemed that days very slowly. to me now, it's passing very quickly. and why? because CAs and test keep coming. and i have very little time to study.
ever since school reopened, i have been busy and busy and busy. i don't have enough time to even think about canada.
but i guess grades are more important now. there's no use missing canada. i can't do anything about it. but i can do something about my grades. if not i'll never get into triple science. and of course as usual trying to get straight As. and without good grades i'll never make it into university of toronto. i can't imagine what'll happen if i don't get in. cause my goal is set already. and there's no alternatives. unless better universities of course. (:
although school keeps me occupied, i still can't help it but think of canada. and i always have this uneasy feeling. or some kind of feeling. well, just let the feeling be there. it makes me miss canada more though.
alright. i can't even think of what to blog now.
i'm troubled now. by something that i don't know.
i shall get some rest. if not i'll start getting headaches.
i'm off. au revoir.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:30 AM
Thursday, June 23, 2005
saying goodbye is never an easy thing.
but eventually i have to say it. and face it.
i wonder how i can ever adapt back to the life in singapore. i've already gotten used to life here in canada. and i'll definitely miss the liveliness in this house. plus all the joy and fun i've had.
i don't exactly miss everybody here that much, cause i'll be seeing them again at my aunt's wedding this december in hong kong. but i'll miss the life here. even though this won't be how my life should be when i come back to canada.
wonder if i'll cry tomorrow. when i've got to say goodbye. or rather i'm getting worried on how i'll feel when i get back to singapore. how can i even concentrate in school during lessons when my mind is somewhere else..missing canada.
but i seriously got to worry about my homeworks. wonder if i'll finish rushing it in just one day. at least i have the time on the plane to finish some of it.
alright. i shall spent the remaining precious time wisely. which is of course spending it with my relatives. and i'm planning to stay up for the night. but i'm tired. i shall try.
okay. i'm off.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
10:33 PM
Sunday, June 12, 2005
i was wrong. and i still am.
thinking that coming to canada would be heaven for me. how wrong can i get. and i'm starting to believe now that it's hell. i can't say it's that bad. but it's bad enough.
they think i'm someone who spends a lot. and those kind of people who can't control on how much they are spending. that money is just paper. oh great.
and how did they come to that conclusion? because somehow everything that isn't my idea became mine. and everything is my fault. since when did i wanted to rebond my hair. i did at first. but refused in the end. mom forced me to, because of the wedding. but somehow it became my idea and now they are scolding me because i wasted 130 bucks on just a haircut. next comes my contacts. mom wanted me to wear to!
fine. i guess i shan't argue at all. no point. and i got to respect people who are older than me. of course. so conclusion. more like their conclusion. is that i haven't even learnt how to earn money and i'm spending money with an eye closed. so that's all. we've come to a conclusion. so end of topic.
they asked me to be more matured. i'm just not. so they have to accept that. and i've always given what mom wants. although there's a few things i've done wrong and i've kept it from here. but yeah. i've been what she has always been asking for. i've given no trouble to teachers and so far i'm a good girl, in her eyes, in school. i've been giving her lots of As and she didn't ask for anything more. so that's what i've always been. and i agree, i do have a bad temper. but i can't help that, can i?
i seriously aren't in the mood to blog. although i have blog a lot.
so i'm off. au revoir.
claaar. i don't know when you're ever going to read this. but glad to know that you're having a nice holiday. and i'll TRY to get you some stuffs. and and and most importantly i'm seriously going to cry without your help now after i got into this mess. so hope to talk to you soon okay? and give me advice like you always do. (:
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:55 PM
